39. First Letter From Captivity: June 2009

Dear Captain,

You have asked me to give you the details of my life. You have specific questions related to the facts surrounding my two sets of genitalia. I have one complete male set with a fully functional appendage, and a female set. Both sets contain all the requisite parts, and I am fertile in both directions. Meaning that I am capable of impregnating someone, and I also am capable of being impregnated.


My mother was advised shortly after my birth that I should become a female, and have the male organs removed. It would have been easier to remove the male organs than to have a full hysterectomy which the Doctors considered to be a more dangerous operation for an infant. My mother not wishing to interfere with the natural processes of my living decided not to have the operation. She has told me that it was not that she wished for me to remain a hermaphrodite, but rather it was only that she was not certain if I should be a boy or a girl. She thought that it was best if I was allowed to mature a bit so she could watch, and see if I would show male or female personality traits. I am eternally grateful to my mother for her decision. Before I can answer your other questions I will give you an overview of how it is that I function.


I am not alone as you know. There are many more like me. More are being born all the time. Our highest numbers are in the so called third world countries. The reason for this is that villages, and slums are less likely to have doctors present. Midwives often will hide our births, and thus we are able to survive. In first world countries, as you know, operations are usually conducted at birth which are hideous in their barbarity. Doctors typically will force mothers to make a choice, and then the child is butchered of it's natural organs so that it can appear to be normal. I wish again to acknowledge my mother for rescuing me from such a fate.


Because it is now the 21st century, and we are in the information age, those of us who are survivors are now for the first time able to network with each other using the Internet. Through this process we have been able to track our numbers, and also to track our abilities, and character traits. We are different from you in many ways. Not just the overt physical characteristics, but in other ways as well. We are able for example, to change our appearance. To choose if we wish to appear physically as a man or woman. We don't do this instantly. If we wish to change we go into a sort of dormancy or mini hibernation. Like when a snake is changing skin for example. The original slang term used in English for this was becoming a couch potato. The term has stuck, and regardless of the language the slang has become simply Potato.


For example, let's say I am currently showing the appearance of a man, and wish to become a woman. I simple would lay around the house for a couple of weeks. During this time, as a potato, I can gradually change my hormonal levels at will. My facial hair falls out. My skin becomes soft. My breasts will grow. Most of us have rather small breasts, but there are exceptions. Even body shape will gradually change. For example, fat and muscle tissue is lost or gained. We all tend to begin rather mid range. Think for example, of the androgynous Rock and Roll singers you may have admired. We have that androgyny to begin with, and simply amplify in either direction as we want. This tends to happen as our love interests change.


We can become attracted to men or women, and change to fit the current desire. We may also change to suit what we believe may be the desires of a potential mate. We are not limited to heterosexual couplings. For example, I may become a male to suit a potential homosexual suitor if it is my desire. I may become female to attract a lesbian. When I say male or female I am speaking of appearances. The genitalia always remain the same within the parameters of what you would call normal. If in the female mode as we tend to call it, then my penis tends to be small, and as dormant as is all the male aspects of me. The other case leaves me with an enlarged penis, and my vagina wanting to stay closed. My urine flow is through the male appendage. Anal sex is simply a matter of choice for us, and has little to do with anything other than personal desire for pleasure (or denial of pain) depending on preference.


Some of us prefer to remain fairly obviously as male or female in outward appearance for extended periods, while others like to play off androgynous aspects, and remain somewhat neutral. I said earlier that all of my parts are intact, and we are all capable of reproducing. If we mate with each other we are capable of reproducing twice as fast as you. We can get our mate pregnant while we are pregnant.


We know no bounds to our sexuality, and tend to like to live communally. Raising our young in this manner is natural for us. We may live six or eight together. We couple off in all sorts of ways, and move between partners quite easily when we do so. There are families in the favelas of Rio in Brazil that I have heard have eighty to ninety children. We maintain the same sexual taboos that you do in regard to incest or pedophilia.


In the United States, and other Western countries we are careful. My being here is not the first time I have heard rumours of abductions of our kind. We never had evidence until recently, but because we are harder to find in the west we long suspected that forces were at work that upset the natural balance. For this reason we have attempted to remain underground for so long.


Aside from our abilities to morph into male or female appearance over a period of a a couple of weeks, we also have the ability to have rapid changes in body chemistry to suit our mood or sexual appetites. For example we can activate sensitivity to our genitalia instantly. We can change our vocal patterns rapidly male to female or opposite. We also can rapidly change the way we move to suit male or female patterns of feminine or masculine. We have also found these abilities to be useful to our survival. Their are breaks in normal patterns that confuse your kind as your senses do not expect them.

We are not sure why we have come into being. We are sure that our numbers are on the rise. While we can not prove any reason for this we have come to believe that climate change is the reason. We have no scientific studies. We do know that in reptiles worldwide there have been increases in births with malformed genitalia or hermaphrodites. In reptiles though they are losing the ability to breed. In our case, the ability to breed has obviously increased. There is apparently great dominance in our genes. If we mate with one of you the child born will be one of us. If we mate with each other the result is the same. In the West must be careful. We fear doctors for obvious reasons.


Even though we can't prove why our numbers may be rising we have all come to believe that we are the next phase or new generation of mankind. We are aware that you have begun to think of us in terms of a threat. The feeling is mutual. I am assuming I am not the only one of us being kept as a lab rat. I find no reason for me to be held here against my will. I ask that you assist in my release, and do not put any of my family through any of the torment which you have put me through under your hands. We do consider ourselves, and your kind as well to be human beings.

Finally, we are very complex creatures. I have left out much of our behavior, and physicality. Natural breeding overtime will leave us the dominant species. We are peaceful. If you stop trying to cut the natural organs from our young and end your programs of sterilization - yes we are very aware - then there is no reason we cannot live in peace. Over time measured in generations you will be like us. There is no reason to fight what is inevitable.

Yours in the name of the unknown Creator, and all of our Prophets who preach loudly in human voices the denial of mythology that falls outside of known scientific truths; in Love, and in the best interests of the future which is ours.

Sincerely,

Jack